Reverse Tarot - rise-kujikawa

@Phea: full-time twink bullier Hey Yu-- sorry to message you out of the blue like this. I was just trying to find the time to send this... Well... I guess I should just come out and say it, but... I have been able to tell that you've been suffering quite a bit. And don't tell me you're just fine! With everything going on, no one would be ok! When we were in Phlegethon, I could sense that you were deeply hurt... And knowing you, you won't tell me anything... but I wanted to let you know I'm here, and willing to listen if you need me to. You don't have to bury yourself in booze and cigarettes, you can always come talk to me if you need to feel better. I don't know how well I'd do, but I'd still love to support you the way you have supported me all these years. I care so much about you... it hurts to see you suffering. Sorry to overstep, just... keep me in your thoughts, if you ever need someone to talk to, ok?

…I know the way I've been dealing with things isn't healthy, but… It's just how I deal with things best. It's at least gotten me this far. I think that has to count for something.

2:38 PM

What would help me most is knowing Yosuke would have someone to turn to after I break the news about my plan to move out. Please be there for him first and foremost. It will help both of us more than you know.

2:39 PM

I'll keep the offer to talk in mind, too, but I don't think I can promise anything. I would prefer to go to a therapist than burden you with all of that. Besides, there's probably some stuff I shouldn't talk about, for Yosuke's privacy. It wouldn't be right to spill all of that to a shared friend. I've already said enough about our relationship that I probably shouldn't have... I don't want to break his trust anymore than I already have.

2:40 PM

Anyway, I've rambled for long enough. Good luck at work, Rise-chan. Break a leg.

2:40 PM

…Not a literal leg. The metaphorical leg.

Oh, Yu, you aren't serious, are you? ... you are serious. Ok, ok, how do I say this... I think it's pretty obvious that Yosuke is going through a pretty terrible time, but when I saw him at New Years with you and Teddie, he looked... relieved. Happy for a moment. I don't know if you fed him sake or what, but he just seemed so much brighter... Yu, I understand needing space, especially if you're suffering... but Yosuke hasn't loved anyone as much as he has loved you, and we all knew that BEFORE you guys got together. Just... don't cut him off completely, alright? If Kagutsuchi really is controlling Yosuke or using him... wouldn't being alone make it so much worse...? I'm kinda too busy to carry EVERYONE'S burdens... I hope maybe Teddie-chan can help him out... But... at least you're going to therapy. I hope that it works out for you... I really want you both to be better, you're both my precious friends... I'll have to find some time to visit him... Just... take care of yourself, Yu. Even if that doesn't mean talking to me, don't let yourself fall too far into despair. We all love you, and we only want you to be happy.

I'm not breaking up with him. I never could. Living together just isn't working right now. It hasn't for months… Really, near a year, at this point.

3:14 PM

I love him more than anything, and that's why I have to get a little distance between us. Everything has become too codependent, and we keep hurting each other, over and over again. Not on purpose, of course. It's just… Unavoidable, at this point, as much as we try to pretend it's okay. The good moments living together aren't worth seeing him hurting constantly because of me. It isn't healthy, and... A little space is necessary, if we don't want this to tear us apart. That's how I've come to see it, at least.

3:15 PM

…Ah, I said I wouldn't talk about all that, and then I did anyway… Sorry. Please don't bring all of that up to him or anyone else.

3:16 PM

Thank you, Rise-chan. I really do mean it. Take care of yourself, too.

Your secret is safe with me... when you put it like that, it makes sense. I just hope that, at the end of everything, you guys end up happily together like you were always meant to... I mean, I had to force myself to stop loving you because I could see how gaga you guys were for each other! I think it goes without saying that you both are meant for each other. I'm always here to listen, Yu-kun. Never forget that-- I'll stop production of the biggest blockbuster just to listen to you guys express your feelings! It means so much that you trust me enough to tell me what's going on, you have no idea... And I have no problems taking care of myself! I'm pretty good at telling my manager every one of my woes, hehe.

hey. figured i should dm you since...y'know, adachi stuff is prolly better talked about here, yeah?

6:52 PM

just wanna say it's okay to feel the way ya do. don't be too hard on yourself about being aggressive, yeah? not like we gotta make friends with him or nothin

Thank you, Kanji-kun, you're such a gentle soul

Oh I know, just... I'm sure it doesn't make anyone else feel good to see that? As much as I want to tell him off all of the time, I'm sure it just makes everyone else feel awkward.

Ugh, it's always pissed me off that he's not rotting in jail somewhere. One of our peers never got to grow up. They both had their whole life ahead of them, and he's still here. I can't forget. I'll never forget. But... I can try and reel it back for everyone else's sake. Especially Yu-kun's.

if it helps, you ain't the only one by a longshot. i mean, i kinda wanna knock his ass out every time i see him, even though i know it wouldn't help nothin. think that goes for just about everybody else, too.

7:09 PM

i wish he was still in jail too, just so we wouldn't have to see the bastard again, but... i guess he's still useful to the shadow ops. and still important to yu and nanako-chan and dojima-san...

Yeah, Yu-kun and the Dojimas... I'm surprised that Yu-kun was so forgiving, but I guess that's how he is with everyone. He has a really kind heart... Dojima-san, too. Knowing that, I can at least tolerate him...

yeah... same here.

Hey, Teddie-chan. How are you holding up? I'm worried about you.

|| @Ribbon

Rise-chan

9:24 PM

What are you going to do?

I'm going to go in and help... I know a bit of healing, but my navigation should definitely help us find her quickly, especially since I know her.

9:25 PM

I know it's really hard right now... I'm going to do everything in my power to help. But if you don't think you can... don't force it, darling.

9:26 PM

I promise to watch over everyone.

Ah..

9:27 PM

Rise-chan? Do you think we stand a chance anymore?

Well, based on what we've been through before, it seems like it's the same, right? People getting kidnapped to the other world, getting hurt... but we-- YOU saved those people, including me! Don't forget, you used all your strength to save us, right after my shadow! We managed it once already, and we have new friends to help too. With everyone working together, I think we can definitely get through this. We just need to reach him, right? And then we can give him the pounding of a lifetime!

9:33 PM

I think... he's trying to separate us, to make us feel beaten down and upset. I know Yosuke-kun must feel alone, but with you, Karu-chan, and Naoya-san there with him, he's been able to be strong, right? The same goes for you-- I don't want you to feel alone in all this. You and Yu-kun are suffering right now, but we're all here for you, and we're all going to get through this together! That's the only way we can beat him!

Ah…

9:34 PM

You’re right.

9:34 PM

I did do that.

You did! You're soooo strong Teddie-chan-- no one casts magic as good as you! Well, maybe Yukiko-chan does, but your healing is definitely the best out of all of us!

Ehe

9:38 PM

I don’t think that’s gonna be doing anything. But you’re right…

9:38 PM

Stay safe, Rise-chan

Of course. I'll fight twice as strong for you! She'll be ok. I'll make sure of it.